As a young adult, admitting problems is something that does not rest easily with me. For the past year I have been battling something that I refused to diagnose or let anyone see. I realize now after seeing all the damage it has done to my body that I have to come out with it and admit my problem as a first step in overcoming it.
Binge-eating is one of the most common eating disorders, that is normally termed as gorging. It kills me to think that I am this, but i am. People don't see what goes on behind closed doors as I have my stashes of processed sugar and I binge eat to overcome stress or to fill some void of emotion that I need that day. Its a constant battle to escape from this demon, but it always ultimately finds me again. It causes me to have mood swings and sugar highs that can make me really hard to be around and make me an emotional basket case.
Not only does my sugar addiction make me emotionally crazy but it takes a toll on my body. At this moment i have disgusting stretch marks and I am borderline diabetic, so my change needs to be for myself and to better myself.
My name is Kelsey and I am addicted to processed sugar and I am a binge-eater
Friday, December 30, 2011
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Two steps back….
Weight loss isn't easy. I have relied on alot in my life to get me through. I thought this time I would rely on myself enough to get me over that hump. It turns out that my resolve is weaker than i have ever thought. I have regained 20lbs since i lost the 30 this summer. I am utterly disgusted with myself. It turns out i have to change more than i thought. I am so unhappy with myself right now, that I am establishing this as my all time low. Never have i felt so lazy, disgusting, and unattractive as I do now and I am not even at my heaviest. I say this a lot, but this time I feel that I am at the breaking point. I need to get healthy if not for my health, for my own sanity.
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